Take a moment to close your eyes and relax. Upon opening them, observe your surroundings as if it’s the first time you’ve seen them; the people are strangers, and you’ve no idea how you got there. You’re sitting at a desk with piles of paper around you, and to the side is a sheet of paper with figures scrawled onto it in what you recognize as being your own writing. The computer screen has a variety of numbers on it, in no particular order. Everyone is staring at you, like they can tell something is wrong.
What do you do? Do you tell the first person you see what’s happening? What if she is an adversary, waiting for something like this to happen so she can have your job? But then, what is your job, and will you be able to perform it tomorrow?
Suddenly, an attractive woman touches your arm and smiles, she seems to sense your leeriness as she asks if you’re alright. “I… I don’t know,” you manage to say, “I need to get my kids.”
“Where are they?” she asks you, but you don’t really know where they are. Since you’re at work, they must be at daycare or a babysitter’s house, but you can’t be certain.
The seemingly helpful stranger picks up your cell phone off the desk and begins to scroll through the numbers. “Ah ha,” she cries jubilantly, and points to a name on the screen that says “daycare” next to it. Calling the number and speaking to the woman, she is able to get directions to where they are located.
You hear someone call the helpful woman’s name from across the room, “Renata!” And then you realize what your angel’s name is. Something familiar rings a bell for you, no specific recollection, only that you like and trust her. You leave to get your children in a car which you are not familiar; from a place you have no memory of, with a stranger at the wheel. What is happening—and are you “special” or could this frustrating situation happen to anyone?
Stress—there are many stresses you conquer every day, some which should be dealt with, such as breaking off relationships with men who live with their mothers. And there are stresses you feel you have no control over, such as spending forty-plus hours a week at a position where you dread walking out your front door, hardly being paid what you’re really worth. You’re used to telling people what they want to hear, or what is “polite,” instead of what you really think. Stress, be it something you can deal with right away or something that will take time, is NOT something which you should procrastinate without anticipating the inevitable. If you don’t deal with your issues, your issues will find a way to deal with you!
After picking up your kids and having your brother watch them, as his number is in your phone, Renata takes you to the hospital. They run test after test on you, charging up the ying-yang, and eventually time allows your memory to begin to come back. Thank goodness Renata, in all her patience, sits with you recalling stories of events you had shared with her previously, until most of what you need to know comes back to you.
You remember being seated on your couch as the ambulance driver and paramedics riddled you with questions of how old you are, what city you live in, etc., before they took you away. Half the questions you didn’t have an inkling of an answer for. You are embarrassed, to say the least, knowing that when you return to work everyone will know of today’s events, whispering as you walk past.
But there’s a lesson which some people don’t like sometimes; minds need to be spoken a bit more, while questioning authority. When someone asks that a task be done, stop to consider, or even ask, why. When a doctor says medication is necessary, ask the pros and cons, declining more often after researching possible side affects. NEVER sign anything without reading it first, no matter how deep the stack of papers, or how many times the other person looks at his watch. Your time is every bit as valuable as his, and you aren’t being paid.
Do yourself a favor and live your life by your own rule book, keeping in mind there are laws that need to be followed, of course. But ultimately your life is the one you’re living, and you’re the one who will either pay or benefit from the choices you make. And above all, work a job or career you enjoy because if you don’t, you’ll definitely regret your decision. If you don’t control your life, circumstances will undoubtedly control you!